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Paul is, Jillie is quite certain, some kind of actual living saint. She knows how he'd woken up when they'd shared her bed, and he'd actually excused himself. And, sure, part of Jillie wishes she hadn't — mostly the southern part of her — but she appreciates that he did, anyway.
But this is something entirely new. Jillie hasn't been on a date in . . . years. Even before she'd gotten sick, she hadn't so much dated as she had . . . gotten around. At least a little bit. It's nice to actually get to know the guy. And they are getting to know each other. They talk a lot. Almost as much as she and Jack talk. Almost as much as she and her therapist talk.
And today, they're going on a date. A real date.
It takes her hours to pick out an outfit. She makes Girl help. She sends pictures to Jack to double check. She's nervous and terrified and excited.
But she can do this.
She's got her hair braided up off her neck, and silver jewelry to accent her dress. Her shoes match her makeup and she's got a small clutch with her phone, keys, and cigarettes. Paul is picking her up. She feels like a princess.
But this is something entirely new. Jillie hasn't been on a date in . . . years. Even before she'd gotten sick, she hadn't so much dated as she had . . . gotten around. At least a little bit. It's nice to actually get to know the guy. And they are getting to know each other. They talk a lot. Almost as much as she and Jack talk. Almost as much as she and her therapist talk.
And today, they're going on a date. A real date.
It takes her hours to pick out an outfit. She makes Girl help. She sends pictures to Jack to double check. She's nervous and terrified and excited.
But she can do this.
She's got her hair braided up off her neck, and silver jewelry to accent her dress. Her shoes match her makeup and she's got a small clutch with her phone, keys, and cigarettes. Paul is picking her up. She feels like a princess.
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Date: 2017-05-12 10:37 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2017-05-13 11:13 am (UTC)He wants to tell her that it would be alright even if she was fishing for compliments, but he doesn't. He looks up.
"Aside from the fact that you're beautiful? Every inch of you?" He includes the scars, the weight he knows she doesn't love carrying, every part of it. "For a long time I've been...terrified of letting anyone close to me. But when its you, I find that I don't think about that at all."
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Date: 2017-05-13 11:18 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2017-05-13 11:19 am (UTC)"I didn't say that," he says. "You terrify me. Just...not in the way that I'd expect." He smiles. "What about you? Why keep coming back to me?"
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Date: 2017-05-13 11:22 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2017-05-13 11:23 am (UTC)He smiles at that, feeling it for the high praise that he thinks it is.
"I'm sorry that everything's moving so slowly."
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Date: 2017-05-13 11:26 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2017-05-13 11:28 am (UTC)He nods, his cheeks flushed as the waitress arrives at their table. Paul orders and then glances up at Jillie, waiting for her to decide, distracted for a moment how beautiful she is.
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Date: 2017-05-13 11:32 am (UTC)"I am . . . really digging the suit, by the way," she says.
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Date: 2017-05-13 11:35 am (UTC)Paul flushes with pleasure, straightening his waistcoat slightly, adjusting the knot in his tie.
"I was hoping you would," he says.
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Date: 2017-05-13 11:36 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2017-05-13 11:40 am (UTC)"There's a tailors," he says. "It...wasn't cheap, but I thought it was worth the expense."
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Date: 2017-05-13 11:44 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2017-05-13 11:45 am (UTC)"I think I can afford one suit," he says, grinning. "Especially if you're going to look at me like that while I'm wearing it."
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Date: 2017-05-13 12:02 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2017-05-14 12:53 pm (UTC)"All the more reason to wear a suit more often," he says. "I'd never have worn one in Toronto and, in Fionavar, the fashion is...somewhat different."
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Date: 2017-05-15 12:51 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2017-05-15 12:52 pm (UTC)She doesn't usually ask about Fionavar, and Paul hesitates, for a moment, before he continues.
"Stockings," he says. "Breeches, boots. Doublets." His nose wrinkles. "It takes some getting used to."
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Date: 2017-05-15 01:03 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2017-05-15 01:05 pm (UTC)"Sort of like a jacket? Fitted. Snug. Buttons down here. You wear them over a shirt," he says. "Think sort of...Shakespearean, but without the puffy shorts?"
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Date: 2017-05-15 01:12 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2017-05-15 01:15 pm (UTC)"You're doing really well," he says, nodding, squeezing her hand. "Honestly. I'm happy to never talk about it if you don't want me to, Jillie. It's...whatever you need."
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Date: 2017-05-15 01:16 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2017-05-15 01:18 pm (UTC)"Right," he says, nodding, his hair slipping forward across his forehead. It's probably best not to tell her the depth of everything that happened, the Summer Tree, the God in the grove, but he'll answer any questions that she's got. "Like I said, Jillie - whatever you need."
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Date: 2017-05-15 01:19 pm (UTC)(no subject)
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